Truth Hurts {Jason}

[Sarah Andrews-Cross]

One Week After...

One Way 2 B Sure

...Sarah stood outside of the bedroom inside of the suite Jason and she shared near the top floor of the Angel Tower, her hands clasped together tightly around her mouth as she attempted to muffle the faint whimpers from her person, trying to gain as much composure as possible before entering...Her mind wondering what reaction her words would bring forth once they fell upon the ears of her beau...

There was indeed a small part of her that was a tad bit upset over the news while at the same time...An additional part of her who thought that perhaps this was just simply a case of something that was meant to be...Or perhaps not meant to be?...Confusion had set in tenfold over the course of the past week for Sarah by this time. Uncertainty over the future of her career, coupled with the general stress of finishing a much too long season had caught up with her mind, soul and body...She wasn't even completely sure that she wanted to continue at this point...Or perhaps she just needed a bit of time away from it all to regain a sense of direction and control over her life as a whole...She really didn't know but...She knew that whatever was to come would begin here and with herself and Jason...

After wiping away any traces of tears from her cheek area, her arm extends causing for her hand to come into contact with the doorknob, and slightly turning it as she pushed forward entering the room...Her eyes instantly come in contact with Jason, standing near the bed they shared each and every night, seemingly finishing up his packing for the short road trip to Calgary for the coming Full Throttle showcase this weekend...A forced smile makes it's way onto her face as she releases the doorknob, folding her arms across her chest area, speaking in a low audible tone...

"Um...Tiger?...I ahh...I think...We need to..."

But her words trail off before she could finish, a lump forming in her throat as she found it difficult to continue on, her face clearly showing that of worry as Jason turned to face her, knowing he had already noticed her facial expression on this day as she heard his voice chime in with a concerned look on his face...

[Jason Cross]

The look on her face as she stood there and the tone of her voice as she first tried to speak had instantly brought a look of concern to his face as he looked at Sarah, a look that was matched in the tone of his voice.

Sarah baby what's wrong? Whatever it is you can tell me baby you know that right.

The last sentence to her was not a question but a statement of fact, as he had realized long ago in New York that Sarah was indeed the most important thing in his life even more so than the career he had chosen to follow.

[Sarah Andrews-Cross]

This was extremely difficult Sarah thought...The look on his face was genuine indeed. She knew she could tell him anything and he'd still love her regardless as well as unconditionally. She'd always known that but...She really couldn't decipher how he would react to this bit of news, she was only moments away from relaying to him on this evening...She struggled to speak as she slowly made her way to the nearby dresser, located a few feet from the door way she had just entered. Leaning against it and lowering her head towards the carpet beneath before speaking...

"Yea...I know...Um...I think we need to...Talk...I...I..."

Once again her words trail off before she could finish her sentence, just as her eyes locked with his, seeing the concern in his face...

[Jason Cross]

Eyes locked with hers the look of concern still etched on his face he approached the dresser where she now stood. Raising her head gently so that they still looked into each others eyes he spoke softly to her.

Okay we'll talk then baby but you have to tell me whats wrong, you making me worried here. Whatever it is I promise I won't get mad or start shouting I just have to know your okay though because I'm really starting to worry here.

Staring into her eyes that seemed to mirror his own look of concern, he really did worry, his mind trying to fathom all the possibilities that could possibly make her feel like this.

[Sarah Andrews-Cross]

Her eyes immediately lowered, downcast towards the floor once again as she stepped away from him and his advance seconds ago...Her arm immediately arose, placing a hand over her mouth as she began pacing in front of the door as she once again began to speak...

"I uh...I have a confession I need to make Jason...I've...I've been...Keeping something from you...For a little while and..."

Her steps come to a stop, a few feet away from the dresser where he now stood and she vacated moments ago before finishing...

"I don't...I'm not quite sure how you're going to take me...Keeping this from you..."

[Jason Cross]

If it was possible the look of concern on Jason's face intensified. What could she have been keeping from him, what secret did she feel she couldn't tell him. Many thoughts ran through his head at the time of what she could be possibly about to tell him some harmless and others devastating. Finally even his voice some what hesitant now he spoke up.

I...uh..what do you need to tell ... what's...

His voice trailed off he was to worried now to even finish speaking as he waited for whatever it was that Sarah had in store to confess to him.

[Sarah Andrews-Cross]

Her eyes now shown a glassy look in them as she stared endlessly towards Jason...Not knowing how he was going to react, or feel towards her once he heard the news...Or perhaps lack thereof?...

"...Well...I...Last week I...I had been feeling...Well...Sick a lot lately so...I...After waiting a while I...Went out and..."

She pauses, clearing her throat a bit before finishing...

"I bought a...Pregnancy...Test...To see if...Well...You know..."

[Jason Cross]

He looked at her now both curious and concerned. This made the possibilities much smaller but he still felt worry from the way she was acting here, had something gone wrong? he knew no matter what he would be here for her now, he didn't know any other way things could be where he and Sarah were concerned.

Whatever the result baby you can tell me. My main concern right now is you, the way your acting. It has me so worried I'm afraid your going to tell me you were dying or something.

[Sarah Andrews-Cross]

Sarah spoke no words...Her eyes remaining locked onto his. She knew he was always there for her but...This was a bit different. She knew he had to at least be a bit disappointed in her keeping this from him for an entire week...Without a word at all. She was almost in a trance as she stood motionless, knowing that either result would have at least some sort of effect on him once he caught wind of it...

"Meh...No...I'm not dying it's just...I'm not sure how...You're going to take the result is all...I know...We both have always talked about...Having a family ya' know and...I'm not sure...*Sigh*...I had to be sure. So...So I made an appointment to get checked out and everything and...Destiny & Laura went with me. I'm sorry for not telling you sooner because...You deserve to know something like that Jason...I was just...Confused...Afraid about...What it could possibly mean...But...I did find out if...The test was in fact...Accurate..."

[Jason Cross]

Truth be told he was a little disappointed that she had not said something to him earlier, he could have at least been there to support her whatever the final result of the test had been. nervousness in his voice he now asked the question whose answer could possibly change his life.

The result what was it Sarah, are...are we...

He looked on now unsure of what his own reaction would be to either a positive or negative result to the test.

[Sarah Andrews-Cross]

...This time not a single word spoken as she noticed the look in his face...Almost as if pleading to hear that they were indeed "with child"...Something they both had wanted and wished for since they found one another it seemed...Yet...It clearly was not meant to be. At least not at this moment in time. Fighting back the tears welling in her eyes she merely shook her head, confirming that they were indeed NOT "expecting", unsure of his reaction....

[Jason Cross]

He stood so very still for only a moment as he let the news sink in that they would not be parents at this time, he was disappointed yes but more so he was worried about Sarah and what this news would mean to her. Stepping forward he wrapped his arms around her gently as he spoke to her.

Oh baby I'm so sorry. I know we both wanted a family someday, and I...I can't imagine how much your hurting over this and I wish I could make that stop baby.

He didn't know what else he could say to her at that point, trying to will any pain this news had caused her away.

[Sarah Andrews-Cross]

Her arms slowly grasped around her beau, the tears finally showing themselves as she embraced as tightly as she could, finally her emotions all coming to a head, burying her face into his person as he held onto her as if he'd never release it seemed...In a faint voice, filled with cries she tried her best to speak...

_{"I'm...I'm sorry Jason...*Sniffles*...I know how much you want a family and...I thought...*Sniffles*...I thought I'd finally be able to give you one..."}

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[Jason Cross]

Jason heard her voice and knew how much she was hurting right now all he wanted to do was make that hurting stop.

Oh Sarah baby you have nothing to be sorry about, you want a family as much as I do and I feel the same disappointment that this wasn't the time but you have nothing to feel sorry about. I'm sure we'll have our family someday and you'll make a beautiful mother for our child, it just wasn't meant to be this time is all.

He could feel her crying as he held her and he pulled her in as gently as possible trying to comfort her as best he could.

[Sarah Andrews-Cross]

Sarah knew Jason's words to be correct. But that didn't stop the horrible feeling that was evident in her mind state over it all...On one hand she was excited about the possibility and on the other? She knew it would have significantly hurt their careers as professional wrestlers...Confusion and uncertainty remained in her thoughts as she clamped onto him never wishing to have to release him from their embrace...Knowing that this most recent ordeal had taken a lot out of her, both mentally and physically. What would be next for the young couple, only time could tell...

TO BE CONTINUED...