After The Brawl.

[Jason Cross]

After the brawl between Ferrari and Jason in the cafe the two men were held outside by security until the Toronto police arrived. The two men are taken from the APW building to the closet police precinct in separate cars of course were they are both held until specific charges could be determined and laid, strangely neither man laid charges against the other saying that they preferred to settle things in the ring this weekend rather than through lawyers in a courtroom, so all charges laid were basically minor ones. Jason due to money he had saved quickly posted bail and disappeared from the station before anyone from APW most notably Sarah could even get there.
He need time to be on his own to think about what had happened. Had Sarah really been in pain or was that just what he wanted to see, maybe she really had been about to kiss him they had known each other before he met her, her first time in New York. Plus even if he had saw the situation right even she must think he was some kind of out of control monster after the way he had reacted, it was like he had been possessed the way he went after Ferrari and even he wasn't sure how far things would have gone had security not stepped in.
After wandering for some time he found himself outside the CN Tower and figured it must have happened out of habit as he used to come her when he was younger to get away from family and think, he pays the admission fee and heads up to the observation deck thinking over what has happened wondering just how badly he may have screwed up things with Sarah.

[Sarah Andrews-Cross]

It was all her fault. That was the only thing running through Sarah's mind as she exited the police precinct Jason and Ferrari were taken to. Upon arriving and trying to see if she could in fact get him out of there, she found out that he had already taken care of that and left before she could make it there herself.

[shadow=purple,left,300]Damn it...Where did you go?...[/shadow]

She stands on the steps of the precinct, staring out into what might as well been nothingness as far as she was concerned. Toronto was a huge city and there was no way she could find him just searching for him by herself. But she knew no one really had the knowledge of the city like she needed them to in assisting in finding him. Her mind began to race back and forth trying to think of where he would go in a situation like this. A few seconds of flashbacks shoot through her mind as she finally began her walk back to the car she had arrived in.

Once there she enters the vehicle and sticks the key in the ignition. Before even starting the car up her mood drops once more as she thinks back to the incident in the cafe. She silently wished she had never sat there another second after Ferrari had arrived at the table. She secretly wished that she and Jason may as well had chosen another promotion to work for and even secretly wished that she had told Jason all about her brief friendship with the man before they arrived here in Toronto. As she leaned back in the seat of the car, her gaze became focused on the rear view mirror as she stared back at herself for what seemed like at least an hour but was most likely no more than 10 minutes. She didn't know what to do at this time and the more she sat there the harder it was to think of WHERE to go first looking for him.

[Jason Cross]

In the observation lounge of the tower Jason stood looking at the city below it seemed so small so far away from up here, it made him wish his problems were just as small and far away. He wanted to call her to tell her how sorry he was for the way he had acted in the cafe, but he was afraid of what she would say when she heard his voice so the phone sat idle in his pocket. of course being on his own darker thoughts also intruded on his mind, what if even now she was with Ferrari planning to leave him because of what happened.

"Damnit why did this have to happen now when everything was finally going so well."

[Sarah Andrews-Cross]

After sitting in the driver seat of her car for a few more minutes, she slowly reached to the ignition...Slowly turning the key to start up the vehicle as she decided to at least give it a try in finding his whereabouts in this huge city. She sat for another moment as the engine ran sounding as if it were waiting on her to proceed. Then as she was pulling off she figured that she at least had one lifeline she could look to at a time like this. Her brother in law knew Jason just as good as she did. Perhaps even better. So she figured it couldn't hurt to give him a call.

So as the car pulled from the parking lot of the precinct, she had retrieved her cell phone from her purse and began dialing the number in an attempt to get in contact with Mark and see if he had some piece of information that could possibly help her today. As she began to wander aimlessly down the Toronto roads in her vehicle, she waited and waited for someone to pick up on the other end of the call she had just placed to Jason's brother. It seemed it was taking forever to get a response. But maybe it was just her being impatient on finding where Jason was at a time like this.

Then just as she was about fed up with waiting and reaching agitation...

[shadow=purple,left,300]Oh screw it then!...[/shadow]

I was going to say hello but screw you too honey...

[shadow=purple,left,300]Mark?[/shadow]

Who wants to know and who's this?...And why are you saying screw me by the way?

[shadow=purple,left,300]No, no it's Sarah Mark...I wasn't...*sighs* Look I just need a little bit of help from you if you can?...[/shadow]

Sure no problem, where's my brother at? Off slamming some punk into the ground or something?

Mark's comment brought a sort of weird look to Sarah's face as she rode along. Then responding...

[shadow=purple,left,300]God you two ARE brothers aren't you?...Okay here's the story...[/shadow]

[Jason Cross]

After hearing the whole story from Sarah mark let out a long whistle.

"Okay the shape he's probably in mentally your best bet would be to head to the CN Tower it's where he used to go to do all his heavy thinking when we lived there as kids, on the off chance he's not there then he'll be at the lion cage at the zoo watching them but check the tower first it's your best bet, and good luck Sarah hope you guys get things straightened out."

At the same time in the CN Tower Jason stood thinking wondering just what he would do if this incident with Ferrari cost him Sarah, how would he react when he had to face the man in the ring, he knew it wouldn't be pleasant but could he control himself enough to keep from making a bigger mistake than in the cafe, and the thing about it that scared him was he just didn't know the answer to that question.

[Sarah Andrews-Cross]

[shadow=purple,left,300]Thanks Mark! I owe you BIG time for this one brother in law...[/shadow]

No problem Sarah, you two just get to working on some neices and nephews for me then okay? Heh Heh...

[shadow=purple,left,300]I'll...See about that one...And get back to you alright? Tee Hee[/shadow]


Sure sis'...Now go get that lug head brother of mine before I have to make a trip myself...

[shadow=purple,left,300]Sure will thanks again and take care...[/shadow]

You too Sarah.

Within minutes she had made great strides in narrowing down the search area for locating Jason in this gigantic city she drove through. Realizing she was in fact headed the wrong way if she was headed to the CN Towers, she took the first opportunity she could to turn around and begin heading in the opposite direction. After getting situated once again, she reaches for her cell phone once again and dials Jason's phone as she knew he always had it on him, hoping she would get an answer from him.

The phone on the other end just seemed to ring and ring with no ending as she sat there with hers firmly planted in her hand. Her mind then began to race thinking what if he was blaming himself for the incident? Or worse blaming HER? Both of these scared her to even think about at the time. Their relationship had already been through enough before coming home to Canada and it seemed like it wouldn't end sometimes. Shaking the bad thoughts off as best she could, she increased the speed of her travels as much as legally possible wanting to get to the CN Towers as quickly as humanly possible.

[Jason Cross]

As he stood thinking Jason heard his phone start to ring he looked at the number and saw that it was Sarah calling him and he became afraid that this call would be her telling him it's all over, that she couldn't be married to someone like him. Even still he knew he had to answer the phone so after leaving it ringing for what must have seemed like forever he finally answered.

"Hello"

He wanted to say more but he just couldn't find the words, so instead he listened hoping that she wasn't about to tell him she never wanted to see him again.

[Sarah Andrews-Cross]

After releasing a long drawn out sigh over the phone as she finally heard his voice after picking up the call, she chimes in with...

[shadow=purple,left,300]Finally...Baby where are you? Are you alright? Why did you leave the precinct and not come back to the Towers?...[/shadow]

[Jason Cross]

Hearing Sarah ask questions instead of saying she hates him calms him somewhat, enough at least that he can answer the questions she asked.

"I'm at the CN Tower I just needed to think and I guess I came back here out of old habits. I guess I'm fine my hand hurts but I don't think I broke anything. I just couldn't go back to the towers yet I mean I know I screwed up bad and you probably hate me for going after him the way I did, but believe me I thought he was hurting you and I just couldn't stand the thought of that."

He braced himself for what he felt sure was going to be her telling him it was over, wishing it would happen anywhere but here in Toronto after all if this had happened anywhere else he could have at least come home to get over it but where could he go when the worst happens at home.

[Sarah Andrews-Cross]

[shadow=purple,left,300]*Sighs* Good. Your brother said you might be there...Now...Stay there until I get there!...[/shadow]

With that Sarah pressed the end button on the phone ending the call abruptly. She knew he was upset and that they had some things to talk about right now, but she felt it best be done in person between husband and wife. So as she sped along the roads of Toronto she thought about how she was going to scold him for worrying her sick!

[Jason Cross]

"Okay I'll wait."

He managed to get that out before she hung up. Then he sat alone with his thoughts as the long agonizing minutes passed till Sarah arrived.

[Sarah Andrews-Cross]

Sarah knew exactly what she was doing by only relaying to Jason to stay put. She wanted him to think a little about the situation that happened earlier in the cafe. They both needed that time and it wasn't really safe to discuss such things driving a car with a cell phone in your hand.

No less than 30 minutes after ending the call with Jason, Sarah had arrived at the CN Tower. Within minutes it seems, she had paid the admission fee and immediately headed straight towards the observation deck in search of Jason. The entire time up she thinks about what she'll say, what he'll say, what they'll do to get past this situation and a million other things. She was mad at him a little for the incident but she knew she had to see him now and that things had to be talked out between them ASAP.

After what seemed like an eternity, her eyes met his as she emerged upon the area he sat waiting for her in. She approached him at a slow pace not taking her eyes from his the entire time. She could see the worry in his eyes so she decides that this needed to be handled with great care and ease. She told herself she wasn't going to get too angry or opinionated...This time...So as she finally arrived at the spot he was now standing at...

[shadow=purple,left,300]Jason...Baby...What's going on with you?...[/shadow]

[Jason Cross]

Jason sighs as he hears the question.

"I'm sorry I thought he was hurting you and with all thats happened in our past when I couldn't stop that from happening like our honeymoon I just snapped I knew I had to stop him and I had to do it right away, I'm just so sorry, but I couldn't stand the thought of him hurting you."

He stands their watching her waiting for her reaction.

[Sarah Andrews-Cross]

[shadow=purple,left,300]Jason...I'm not talking about that. I'm talking about the fact that you just had me worried completely sick about you! I didn't know if or what charges were gonna be pressed or...I was totally out of the loop about where you were or what was going on with you...[/shadow]

She stops talking for a minute as she realizes she had almost broken her own promise to herself. She was beginning to get upset. So after taking a breather to calm herself she continued on...

[shadow=purple,left,300]I understand why you did what you did back at the cafe baby...I do...When you see someone you love in trouble...Especially after...Other...Incidents...It's kind of natural to go a bit nuts...But I have to admit...Seeing you flip out like that...It...It kind of scared me a little...I was in shock and...I couldn't even move the entire time...I just...I...[/shadow]

But before she could finish, Jason chimes in with...

[Jason Cross]

Jason's face looks slightly pained as he hears Sarah say even she was a little afraid of him, but he decides the best thing to do is tell her exactly why he left the police station and work things out from there.

"I left the police station because I was beginning to doubt myself to wonder if, I really saw things right or just saw what I wanted so I would have an excuse to go after him for all the times he's been pushing my buttons lately, and I was afraid that after what happened you would probably hate me or think I was some kind of monster and just want me gone, so I came here to think, to try and figure out what to do."

[Sarah Andrews-Cross]

Sarah's heart almost dropped after hearing Jason's words. Her face almost turned a ghostly white and she couldn't believe what she was hearing from the man she loved. She had her own opinion of what she thought Jason thought HE saw happening and it did pain her to think that he would ever believe such a thing.

After standing silent staring at the ground for a few moments, she makes her way to a nearby bench no more than 10 feet away, plopping her frame down on it slowly. The entire time her face is blank and seemingly full of at least a little sorrow. Seated on the bench, her eyes remain focused on the floor in front of her as she relays the events of the day and the dialog from Jason a few moments ago. Then as she lifts her head to face him, a single tear running down her face she responds...

[shadow=purple,left,300]...Are you saying...You thought...Me and...Him were actually...[/shadow]

[Jason Cross]

Jason closes his eyes for a moment burying his face in his hands before looking at Sarah and speaking.

"I don't know what to think right now too be honest Sarah what with him coming to our room when you weren't there and telling me that the two of you had some special connection. I don't know if I really saw you in pain or just think I saw that so I would have the reason I've been craving to go after him, and I don't want to believe you would kiss him but with all thats been happening lately I just don't know what to think anymore."

[Sarah Andrews-Cross]

Sarah's face remained focused on the floor in front of her feet. This was the first time Jason had ever expressed any sort of doubt about their relationship. Regardless of what was going on with them she always knew that they believed in each other and as long as that was so, nothing could pull them apart. But as she saw, this was different from the other times of big problems in their still young marriage.

He was doubting...Something...She didn't know if it was her he was doubting, himself or the both of them. But either way she did know it hurt...Very much...In an attempt to be strong at a time where she knew she couldn't really be, she raises her hand to wipe away as much of the tears she could...Then speaking in a low voice barely audible...Her words broken into pieces by the tears still flowling...

[shadow=purple,left,300]So...What are you...Accusing me of..."Being" with him?...Are you really going to believe something that HE of all people said Jason?...After all we've been through over the past 3 or 4 months and you...I...I just...Just can't believe that...I just can't...It's not...[/shadow]

[Jason Cross]

"No I don't believe him I...it's just that."

As much as he didn't want to say what came next he did because she had to know the truth what he had really been thinking while he was here alone.

"I just can't help but wonder if you wouldn't be better off without me because of all thats happened to you since you met me, and it scares me that I might lose you and then with all that he said, I'm just afraid that you might leave me, so that you wouldn't have to go through all this anymore, so that you could have a life without all these problems."

As he spoke Jason slowly slid down the wall he was leaning against he felt beaten and exhausted, he didn't want to lose Sarah but at the same time with all the trouble that she had been put through since meeting him how could he expect her to stay.

[Sarah Andrews-Cross]

By this time Sarah's gaze had began changing from that of extreme sadness to that of anger. Her eyes making a bee line for the man she loved more than anything but was so close to snapping on at the moment. Then as she lowered her head back down once again, she began to speak...Not her own dialog but as if she were reciting something...The words she spoke were...

"If you never give up on your dreams, then how can you honestly expect me to let you go now, or even believe that you would walk away from what we have..."

As she began reciting the words with a face of stone, Jason glanced up at her. She could feel his eyes on her but continued on until she had finished the entire dialog from what he said to her no less than 2 months ago at a certain River Cafe...

"...the two of us together that's our dream and we can't let him take that from us, I don't care what threats he makes he is not the only one with friends I can protect you Sarah and I'm more than capable of protecting myself. All I ask is that you stay with me even...even if you won't marry me you're all I want, all that matters and I can't lose you because if I lose you than, I will have lost...everything."

When the dialog comes to a close, she slowly raises her head...Her eyes meeting his across from her...This time even more tears welling up in her dark brown eyes as she begins to slowly stand from her seat. Then after raising her hand to wipe away as many tears as she could...She said...

[shadow=purple,left,300]Well...I guess...All of that was a lie then huh Jason?...Well...Congratulations...You had me completely fooled...[/shadow]

As soon as the last word is spoken, a flood gate of tears are opened and they begin to rush down her face in full force as she begins making her way for the exit...Her hand placed firmly over her own mouth in an attempt to suppress her own sobbing...Feeling the need to get away before she completely broke down...