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Post by snl2 on Jul 12, 2008 16:38:17 GMT -4
"I can't say I ever felt much love from my father, pretty much growing up he was addicted to drink and painkillers. He hit my mom and I stepped up one time thinking he wouldn't hit me... unfortunately I found out the hard way that yes he wasn't above hitting a 14 year old girl. From that moment I learned either to run like hell or just agree with him"
Lauren's smile waivered as she took a sip of the latte
"I guess that I never really forgave him"
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Post by Kenisha Williams on Jul 12, 2008 17:29:12 GMT -4
"You poor thing."
A concerned look formed on Jay's face. An alcoholic, pill popping father who beats his wife and children... That must've been hard, he thought. He wondered something...
"That's unfortunate. You can't necessarily blame him. Not saying what he did was the right thing to do, I'm just on the outside looking in and giving my theory on this. I'm not saying you or your mother deserved it neither. I'm not saying any of that. I'm not familiar with your family, so if I'm wrong, please do correct my assumptions. But, if I'm right, you can't really blame your father. What I would blame would be his bad habits. Alcohol, if it becomes an addiction, can be a really bad thing. Mixing it with other substances such as prescription drugs like painkillers can only make it worse. Leaving him with a disturbed mindstate. I don't know you're father, but I would like to ask... How was he prior to this drinking and pill popping? Was he kind then? Or were you born during this time?"
...As he waited for an answer from Lauren, Jay finished off his 'latte with one final drink from his glass.
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Post by snl2 on Jul 13, 2008 6:38:07 GMT -4
"Well, I never my father before wrestling, during my early years he was away mostly. Funny I remember his stories during his good moments about how he was this great wrestler, only years later I looked in archive footage to find out that he wasn't as great as he said. I guess calling him out on this probably wasn't the smartest of moves. The day I made the mistake of hitting him brought the worst beating of my life, I honestly thought he was going to kill me. Luckily a certain boy took a shine to me came in levelled my father and took me away"
Lauren picked up her glass and then sighed, she hadn't realized that it was empty before
"If only life were as simple as coffee"
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Post by Kenisha Williams on Jul 14, 2008 10:22:10 GMT -4
"Hmm... Yeah. It's a shame that life isn't all it's cracked up to be."
Jay nodded as he looked at his empty glass. Shaking his head, he just laughed slightly to himself..
"I guess we'll just have do what we have to do. Take the bad, take the good, and make the most of what we've got. Ain't no fairy tales in life. There will be ups and down, smiles and frowns. Fairy tales are make believe. We'll have to make the most of what we have here in the real world. Sometimes our pasts can get real ugly, but when we're in those dark times... You just have to remember that there is always light at the end of each tunnel. When you get there, you'll realize dealing with all the bullshit in life makes it worth while when you reach the good times. That's my philosophy on life."
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Post by snl2 on Jul 14, 2008 11:31:24 GMT -4
"The rough with the smooth,eh?"
Lauren couldn't help but smile, she signals for some more lattes. She had time before she was supposed to be back at the arena, she assumed that so did Jay
"I guess this would be the smooth, I'm having another, might get one of those delightful looking cookies here. Let's just say at times we have control over good things"
Lauren reached and placed her hand on Jay's
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Post by Kenisha Williams on Jul 14, 2008 11:57:54 GMT -4
His eyes lowered to see Lauren's hand overtop of him. For some reason, all he could do was just smile. His vision rising to look Lauren in the eyes. He was glad to know that she felt like they were close friends. He nodded his head and said...
"Yeah. That's the good part about being at the end of the tunnel. You get to choose how long you want the light to last. Unfortunately, all good things must come to the end... But that is the reason why it feels so good to be in the smooth. It may go away, but you can always go on knowing that eventually, it all comes back to you. And when that happens? That makes it great and the feeling much more meaningful. You know?"
He nodded, his eyes locked onto Lauren's as he spoke.
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Post by snl2 on Jul 14, 2008 12:39:32 GMT -4
"Yeah, seeing my daughter for the first time was an amazing feeling, and it only grew stronger each time I looked at her. Just like her being away from me and not knowing where she is hurts more and more each day... But the great American justice system decided I was an unfit mother and Logan was the perfect choice for her to live with..."
Lauren wiped a tear from her eye as her voice quivered toward the end of that sentance
"I'm sorry"
Lauren used a napkin to dry her eyes...
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Post by Kenisha Williams on Jul 14, 2008 13:06:53 GMT -4
"Don't be sorry Lauren. Don't be."
He placed a hand on her shoulder, then used his other hand to place under her chin. Lifting her face up to look in her eyes. Then he spoke...
"I know that it may seem bad now. I know it does. Not knowing where your daughter is? Not having her in your custody? It's bad. It's real bad. I know that it hurts. That is exactly what I was saying though Lauren. You got to go through the bad in order to get good. You're going through a hard time. It's understandable. Tears are nothing to be sorry over. All you have to do is prove to our "beloved" judicial system in the States that you're better than what they think. Prove them wrong. And at the end of this dark tunnel... There Michaela will be waiting for you."
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Post by snl2 on Jul 14, 2008 16:13:38 GMT -4
"Yeah, I know you are right but I just can't stop blaming myself, if I had been vigilant enough to check my own mail. I wouldn't have missed the court date, and maybe I'd be bouncing Michaela on my knee right now. Sounds strange but simple things like that I miss, her smell, her smile, her big beautiful brown eyes... Though that is odd since both myself and her father have green eyes..."
Lauren reaches into her bag and pulls out a photograph to show Jay
"I only wish my mother could have seen her, I reckon I would have made her proud"
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Post by Kenisha Williams on Jul 14, 2008 16:59:29 GMT -4
Jay looked at the picture. Nodding his head with a smile on his face, he says...
"Cute kid."
He looked up at Lauren.
"You made a mistake. People do that. It's human nature. You made a mistake and you're human. If people never made mistakes, you would see our world would be a crappy place to live. All the horrible ideas that spawn out of people's brains sometimes... Can't imagine if people just looked at the mistakes and never learned a thing from them. All you have to do is prove that you're a fit mother to the courts and hopefully they'll let you have your daughter back. They should anyways, it'd be a shame for a daughter to grow up without her mother. That's like... common sense for anyone who has ever had a child."
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Post by snl2 on Jul 15, 2008 5:21:28 GMT -4
Lauren smiled as she heard the "cute kid" part she knew she was but Lauren loved to hear it from others... Lauren hadn't really considered fighting the decision after Logan had put her straight and she had no answer for it. What Jay said was right, Lauren couldn't imagine growing up without her mother and Lauren knew she had so much to teach a child...
"I know, I feel I have so much to teach her so she doesn't make the same mistakes I did or if she does she understands the consequences for them"
Lauren stood up, looking down at Jay she says
"Excuse me, I'm going to go call my lawyer about this, I'll see you around Jay"
Lauren then smiles
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Post by Kenisha Williams on Jul 15, 2008 18:22:25 GMT -4
Jay smiled back and nodded his head. Seems his words have inspired her to get right on that task. He was glad that he was here to help. When he looked at Lauren, he saw a person who was in need of rescuing... A person in need of a friend... In need of some help... If Jay had to throw on his cape and play Superman... He had no problem helping out a friend in need. It made him feel good that his friends trusted his opinions enough to open up to him like Lauren does. He just sat there with that smile on his face. A short nod of his head and he said...
"See ya around Lauren."
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